And it came to pass

Many of you have been wondering where is Linda? Nothing on the blog. Well, I am grateful to say I am still here. I have been in the hospital for the whole past month. I have some recollection of the stay and alot of foggy times. I have been told I was very very sick, even to one point that my oncology team of doctors were afraid.

Brief summary is that I had fever, rashes, peripheral neuropathy, my heart went in and out of A fib and normal sinus rhythm with a few brief runs of V tach. They tried several medicines and finally put me on Amiodarone. Heart seems to be behaving now. Then the kidneys shut down and no urine came out. They gave me a couple of bedside dialysis treatments. Because of the kidneys weren't working all of the medication they had been giving me built up in my bloodstream and I had some big problems because of that. I .had the most horrifying nightmares. They couldn't wake me up.

My dear family, the kids arranged so that one of them, or Dave or Grandma Jane or my Aunt was with me day and night for a couple of weeks. What a great sacrifice for them but what great love shown. I am a pretty sad person to look at. bald, skin and bones but they looked at me with such love. I am so proud of them and feel so very very blessed they are my family.

I am learning through this experience that in ALL things there is oppostion. During this last month when I was sort of with it and mostly not, I felt the definite feelings of angelic visitors and I felt the deepest sadness and sorrow. Satan trying to bring me down. I look in the mirror and have to look directly into my eyes and then I have to tell myself , I am ALIVE, I am Linda Danielson and Heavenly Father granted me my miracle of preserving my life. I knew somehow before I came to Salt Lake that it would be a long road, I did not know how long or how very hard. But I am alive.

I know that this is because of the many, many prayers, fasting and support from so many people. I don't think I even have an idea of everyone but I thank you with all my heart. I selfishly ask that I remain in your prayers. I am still a long way from getting to come home. I have received so many cards and well wishes by email. I was ill enough that I didn't do anything for a couple of weeks. Please know I appreciate the remembrances.

I have debated about putting a picture of me on the blog, but I have decided to throw all vanity out the window. I want people to be prepared to see what I look like when I come home and it has to be better than the way I look in this photo. I am having a EEG, checking for amyloidosis in the brain..probably just to see if I have a brain.

WARNING.......Look at this picture and then please remember ME.
And it came to pass.......patience