The ticker

Well, I guess my journey is going to still continue on for awhile. I have had a few episodes of irregular heart beat which the rhythm specialist cardiologist is aware of. I had a pretty impressive one today while has left me feeling weak, shakey knees and completely exhausted. It really didn't feel like atrial fibrillation, just regular beats with some very long pauses that came along. They are sending an event monitor, not to be confused with a holter monitor. A holter monitor, monitors the heart for 24-48 hours. An event monitor is worn for weeks or even a month as it gathers data. It will be interesting how that data is sent to SLC. Hopefully we will figure what my heart does that makes me feel so very bad.

I have days where I actually live a little life and then usually the next day I have to chill out. I am living a life that probably most women would envy. I don't have any demands upon me, no deadlines, no real expectations....and then there's me setting goals for each day and trying to accomplish something in a day. Perhaps I need to lower my own expectations and they I wouldn't be using every other day to recovery. But it feels good to be living life a few days a week. Every day in my prayers I thank the Lord for the gift of life. I will take the lifestyle I am given. I will make it meaningful somehow. I will love and serve people the best I can in my way.

I am amazed and very humbled by the sweet persistent efforts of one amazing lady. I feel like she has adopted me and she regularly drops by a meal, just for me. She knew I had lost my 8 pounds I had worked so hard to gain and now I am trying to get them back before I see the Dr's next week. I wish I could find my appetite. Not sure where it is. Bless that angel friend.

I am inspired by the news of goodwill catching on all over the United States where people are paying off lay a ways for people who were behind at Kmart and would have struggled with Christmas. Goodness is contagious... lets all keep it going and look for someone who needs a little help and then secretly help them. Little things can make a big difference. It doesn't have to be anything big.

Merry Christmas to all of you and a very heart felt THANK YOU for your support to help me make it through this year. I am here to tell each of you, the hardest trial in your life...you can make it because you are never alone. Our Savior is always there, and more people than you can possible ever know are too. God bless you all.